How selfish, and stupid was I then? Of course it would matter. Of course it would. To look around and see, what I am, to people now, and to think I was so callous about the possibility of throwing that away, it makes my heart sore.

I am awash, with glorious life, pulse after pulse of it. Some people won;t ever have that knowledge. But if reading such a sad book makes you realise it, I would recommend it to anyone, everyone, with all my heart.

And I can only hope to wash away or soften my past ignorance with the tears born of this realisation. Because I am so happy. And I am so grateful, that I realised it now.